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Doing everything to keep my mind occupied. I do not want to fall apart. I don't have the strength to. I'm so tired. But the thought of sleeping terrifies me because of the nightmares I am likely to have.

How do you function when you've been told that there is no hope for your mother? When you know that from now on the cancer will only grow, and spread?

I keep telling myself this is happening. I keep trying to understand. But I don't. It's been one year and three months. And I still don't understand it. I don't believe this is happening to us. Because it can't be. It just can't be.