Empty

I don't remember last time I was this lonely.

How did my life turn into this?

I love you

It's not like I'm not used to being far away from everyone.
I'm used to not being in daily contact with the people I love.
But somehow it seems extreme right now.

I'm lonely.
And I miss you.
And the only person that is attempting to shorten the distance between us right now is my mum.
And that means everything.
Thank you.

See the moment

It's difficult. Knowing what to say, and when. Not wanting to step on any toes, but not wanting to seem clueless. How to let someone know that they see, without making it too obvious. How do you say 'I care' when you never have the time for it? The moment rarely comes, running around in this crazy world there isn't much time left. So when the moment does appear, grasp it and don't let go. It's all it takes. To make someone feel.

Come sit in my chair

You know how you sit and look out the window at night?
Can I come and sit with you?
I know you cannot sleep,
do you want to not sleep together?
I have a green chair that I curl up in,
I could make space for one more.
We can look out the window together.
See the cars drive by.
Hear the rain towards the window.
Look at the leaves on the tree.
We wouldn't have to talk.
We would just sit and look out the window,
like we always do.

This time though,
we wouldn't be alone.

Again I go unnoticed

It's quiet. And I don't want to disrupt the silence.
They keep telling me it's not healthy.
But what do they know?

I close the curtains, and turn away from the world.
Dive into a different time, where it is warm.
Why is it so cold out there?

I hear the voices, of people trying to push in.
They want to take me out of my hole.
Does anyone see the pain?

I said I'm lonely. I said I'm scared.
The heavy words were shrugged off.
You should have taken me seriously.