I love you

It's not like I'm not used to being far away from everyone.
I'm used to not being in daily contact with the people I love.
But somehow it seems extreme right now.

I'm lonely.
And I miss you.
And the only person that is attempting to shorten the distance between us right now is my mum.
And that means everything.
Thank you.

I miss you

So I went to sleep, with the wish of seeing you in my dreams.
I see your smile and hear your voice.
I hide in your arms and never want to let go.
It feels safe, and comforting.

I never want to wake up.

When I'm awake all I have is your photo.
I dreamingly look at it, thinking of what could have been.
Thinking of the laughs and the journeys.
It makes me sad, we will never have that again.

I want to go back to sleep.

I turn back time in my sleeping state.
Return to a life when we weren't seperated.
We don't take it for granted, because I know I will have to wake up.
When the alarm goes off I curse my life as you disappear in front of my eyes.

Sometimes it's just not fair.

Family

My wonderful brother, best friend, you will always be there when I need you.
I've called you at 4am, and you pick up the phone.
I've made you laugh at my jokes, and listen to my problems.

My dear mum, never have you failed me.
I've left you behind so many times, but your arms are always open when I return.
I tell you everything, almost, and you never get sick of hearing my voice.

My amazing dad, you always make me laugh.
No one can pick me up like you can, all I need is to hear your voice.
I've forced you to be patient over and over again, and you haven't failed yet.

Not a day passes when I don't think about you.
Not a day passes without me wishing I could have both worlds right here.
I've made a choice.
But that doesn't mean I don't miss you.
Every day.
Every hour.
Every minute.