Facts

They say Sweden is darker than England,
I'm no longer so sure.

Never assume

Do you see the boy sitting laughing with his friends in the library?
Big blue eyes, and a big, goofy smile.
He couldn't look happier.
But do you really know?

Look at the girl running around the lake.
She's not even panting, taking light steps.
She must be so proud.
But do you really know?

There's a quiet girl in my class.
She's smart, plenty of friends. Just not the kind of person who talks in class.
She's so normal, happy.
But do you really know?

It's always the ones you dont expect.
They're the ones who suffer the most.
Who cry themselves to sleep.
Who have to force themselves to get out of bed in the morning.
Never assume.
Because it hurts when people don't see.
Even though they don't want you to see.

Company in the dark

Is this the sound of our demise
Or just the opposite?
I love you and I miss you
What else is there to say?
It takes a hell of a lot more to complete this

Far more, far more to recreate
Far more, far more, far more, far more
Far more, far more than we can take

When you decide how much time
Do you let, do you let, do you let, do you let
Pass before
These false starts, these small meals
They're for my, for my starving hands
Just treading, just treading shallow waters
Avoiding the drop, the drop in the ocean floor

Far more, far more, far more, far more
Far more, far more than we possess
How much, how much, how much
How much longer, girl
How much longer do we need to wait?

For a moment when the blare of the tv subsides
And then song fills the air, playing every night
A change in the key feels like a change in the season

I pretend almost every, every other night
That this body and its entirety belongs to me, every breath
It comes and goes
It comes and goes
All night

Well, you can't dictate the way, the way I'm gonna feel
No matter what, no matter what I'm forced to see
I'll be the one free of jealousy

Far more, far more, far more, far more
Far more, far more than we can take
So well, so well, so well rehearsed
I coordinate this kind of mess

I love you and I miss you
What else is there to say?




The music is playing tonight. The Honorary Title keeps me company.

The truth

"Is this all in my head, or is it real?"
"Well of course it is in your head, but why in the world would that make you think it isn't real?"



A brilliant quote from a brilliant book.
Thank you J. K. Rowling for letting Dumbledore say those words...

To do, or not to do.....

There's a clash.
A class I want to take.
My weekly meetings which keep me a float, or at least did so last year.

If I say yes to the class, I might not get new appointments until spring.
But if I say no to the class, am I letting this dictate too much of my life?

I gave her a rose

I went to see her today.
My angel.
It was beautiful.
The rain stopped for the thirty minutes I spent with here,
and the sun broke through the clouds.
It felt good,
it felt right.
I'm happy I did it.
I'm happy I had the strength to go.
Next week it's been 7 years.
I cannot grasp that it's been that long.
2004, it said on her stone.
It feels like a life time ago,
and it feels like it was yesterday.

I felt calm when I left.
It was perfect,
or at least as perfect as it can be without you here.

Christmas plans are settled!

So, it seems like I'll be having Christmas 'down under' this year!! How amazing isn't that?
Going down for a friend's wedding, and then adding some exploring and chilling with good friends.

I feel a good year coming :)